Catching Up #015

Life's gotten busy lately. It seems like after the holidays, life sped up and things piled onto my seemingly never-ending to-do list. Between all the craziness at work, my personal life and relationship, keeping a home, volunteering at the church, paying bills, doctor and vet visits, and more, more, more, it's a wonder I haven't completely lost my mind in these past two weeks. 

But something awesome has also been happening.

I've been working on my happiness, stress and anxiety, and I'm really proud of the progress I've made. It's been hard, and I wake up and work at it every single day, but it's been worth it. It gets frustrating because I feel like I start over each morning and try again and again, when there are some people in the world who don't have to put in any effort at all. It's hard, but like I said, the journey has been well worth it. 

Last weekend, Jay and I went downtown to Toronto and explored the city. We took the train, and spent the afternoon walking around the city. It was freezing, but it was beautiful. It reminded me of my very first trip to Toronto last year, and it's wild to think of how quickly time flew by. I love this city, and every time I visit it, I find more reasons to love it even more. 

That night, we went to a Raptor game and I. had. the. time. of. my. life. 

I got Jay tickets to the game for Christmas, and I was so excited to go! When we started dating, he got me into watching basketball, and now I'm completely in love with the game. 

It was so fun seeing the players in person and being in that atmosphere with all the fans. Plus, sharing in that moment with Jay made it all so much more special. I can't wait to go back to another game! 

I make it a point to only post photos on my blog that I've personally taken, because I take pride in the photos I take and I love taking them. However, these photos were taken by my parents and I loved them too much not to share them. My dad lives in Washington, and he took these photos of the Full Wolf Moon a few days ago. And my mom is visiting Utah right now and took this amazing photo of the mountains. These photos inspired me to take more photos and spend more time outdoors, offline.

Lastly, this week was spent in the company of great family and friends. And I think that helped keep me calm and collected instead of stressing out, because I wasn't just inside my own head the whole week. I easily had one of my most stressful, and nerve-wracking weeks, but I feel like because I was in good company, everything was okay. 

We started off our week by volunteering at church, setting everything up and tearing everything down at the beginning and end of the service. Then throughout the week we did good, productive things together as a couple. We spent time with visiting family friends, had family and friends over for coffee at our house, and said goodbye to a good friend who's off to climb Mt. Everest. And we also met with our church group to mingle and talk about how to help families in our community and got new updates on a Syrian family we're sponsoring to move to Canada. 

It was a busy, and very good week. And I think it was because I kept myself busy with good company and a positive attitude. I hope to keep that up, because this good feeling feels good.

A little endnote: Last night, Jay and I got into an argument. It was ugly, it was stupid, and looking back at it today, I can't even remember what we were upset about. But it kind of contradicts everything I've said here about being less stressed, angry, etc. And I love that, because it's real, and it's a great reminder. Not everything is perfect, and despite how hard you may work at something, you're bound to fail sometimes. And that's okay so long as you get back up and learn from it, come up with ways to better handle situations, and pray for grace. Like the sun rises and sets, you get a brand new opportunity every single day to do better, make better choices, and mold yourself into a better version of yourself. I think last night was a test from God, and although I may have failed, I think I passed too, because today I'm stronger, more self-aware, and more thankful.