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My path to happiness | International Day of Happiness

Today is International Day of Happiness, so naturally I’m writing about nothing other than my path to happiness. (Groundbreaking, I know) To say the last few months have been some of the longest, heart-wrenching, soul-breaking, anxiety-ridden months of my life, would be an understatement. However, they have also been some of the most influential, eye-opening, gratifying and life-changing months of my life – and I’m grateful for that. In September, I made the heart-breaking decision to leave the life I’d built for myself. I left a near 3-year relationship, a house, a cat, a career, a second family. For the simple reason of: I was unhappy. I was unhappy with myself, and since happiness blooms from within, I knew I couldn’t fully give myself to anyone or anything else if I wasn’t fully loving myself, first. So I decided to leave everything I knew, to come back to a place that was familiar so I could find myself again, fall in love with myself, recognize myself in the mirror, and ultimately put myself back together. …

What to do when you don’t know what to do

Life is hard and confusing, and it comes at you from all angles and leaves you feeling tiny and lost. We have our lives planned out – school, work, family, bills, repeat. But what about when you’re in the in-between? What happens when you’re in the process of getting that job or getting into school or meeting that person? How do you get where you ultimately want to be? What do you do when you don’t know what to do? Things aren’t always perfectly laid out for you, and sometimes you have to go through the infamous season of waiting and unknown in order to realize what you were made to do or be. 1. Have a heart-to-heart with yourself When was the last time you checked in with your heart and mind? Truly checked in? Take society, expectations and pathways out of the equation and simply focus on what you want out of this life. What makes you overflow with happiness? What’s one thing you could spend countless all-nighters for? One thing you can’t live without. Something you’ve reluctantly …

Life Lately: Crazy Hawaii weather, finding happiness + lots of changes

My life lately has been anything but boring, bland or “routine.” Since coming back from my trip to Nevada and Arizona, I’ve made A LOT of changes in my life (and I’ve actually stuck to them!!) And when you’re reading this, I’ll be unpacking from my trip to San Diego! I’ve been so busy, that I haven’t had time to post here, but I have been posting a lot to Instagram and Twitter (if you want to follow me there). Anyway, here’s what’s been going on in my life lately. Spent my first Valentine’s Day alone for the first time in many years. It was tough because it was different and filled with memories of the last few Valentine’s I spent with him. But I got through it, I treated myself to flowers, sweets, a bubble bath and my favorite Mark Ruffalo movies. I started a brand new job and I as of today, I’ve been working here for a month! I rearranged my work area and this is what my desk and view from …

Meeting myself with the 23andMe Health & Ancestry Kit

I’ve never known much about where I come from, but I’ve always been interested. My mother did genealogy research about 10 years ago, but that’s only half of me. I don’t have a close relationship with my birth father, and my paternal grandmother passed away when I was young. So I had no way of knowing what makes me, me. Then I decided to order a DNA kit, so I could finally figure out what I’m made up of and where I come from. I decided on 23andMe’s Health and Ancestry kit because it gives you over 80 reports on your: Ancestry Carrier status for certain diseases and illnesses Genetic health risks Traits Wellness I ordered this thinking it would be interesting to know if any diseases run in my family, and exactly what percentage of Filipino I am. See, before I took this test I thought I was just Filipino and a small mixture of Caucasian (French and German). So I was blown away when I got my results back. How does it work? …

Life Lately: New job, getting healthy, and moving

The last few months have been a whirlwind. I can’t even believe I’ve been back in Hawaii for almost half a year already (what?!) and since being back here, I’ve been really focusing on myself for the first time in years. My breakup, leaving my job and home, and relocating back to America in the span of a week or two was rough on me. And while I’m being honest, I’m still healing. Every day is a struggle, and I think that’s important to recognize. Heartbreak hotel. I recently took a trip to Arizona and Las Vegas, and it was everything I needed. Being in the desert, driving for hours each day, immersing myself in foreign surroundings, seeing new people and new places was healing. On my last night there, I broke down in my hotel room. I cried and asked “why, why, why” and when I woke up the next morning, it was as though I woke up in God’s hand. I felt okay. My heart opened up and I breathed out the biggest …

Living Through the Hawaii Missile Threat

January 13th, 2018 will be a day I’ll remember forever. It was the day I was told I had 10 minutes left to live. At 8:08am, my phone blared with this Emergency Alert: My mom came running up the stairs screaming, but all I could do was stand there. Whether it was disbelief or complete shock, all I kept thinking was: Is this really happening? Is this real? I immediately jumped to all the news sites, social media, TV, radios – but there was nothing. People were talking about it on Facebook, posting the same screenshots of that emergency alert. But all the news stations were silent. We didn’t know what to do. If it was real or not. Where we should go. How long we had. Where it would hit. We didn’t know anything. So I called my loved ones, told them I loved them. And then I waited. My family and I sat and waited, because that’s all we could do. 10 minutes passed. 20 minutes passed. Our world was silent. The streets were …

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Books I’m Reading Right Now

I used to read and write every single day, but over the years I slowly got busier and busier and didn’t have time for it anymore. But lately, I’ve been prioritizing my passions and now I make time to read and write every day! Here are books I recently picked up. Big Magic | Elizabeth Gilbert I’ve been wanting to read this for a long time, because I’ve seen it everywhere. And now that I’ve started writing my book (more on that later), it seemed like the perfect time to pick up a book about living your best creative life. I just finished this a couple days ago and I loved it. It’s full of motivation that slaps you right in the face and it’s what got me to finally sit down and write the first page of my book! If you have a dream or a goal, but think it’s silly or are afraid to start because you’re afraid of failure, go pick this up. Eat Pray Love | Elizabeth Gilbert Since I’m going …

2018

  It’s here. A brand new year. A fresh page. Clean sheets. New eyes. Open book. Empty road. Endless possibilities. 2017… Never before have I been so moved by a year. There was good, bad, blessings and a whole lot of questioning, “Am I doing the right thing?” It was love and loss all wrapped into one. It was discovery, turmoil and awakening. It was a year I’ll never forget, because it was a year that shaped me, yanked me, nurtured me, changed me and ripped me apart all at once. But 2018? 2018 is the year that puts me back together. 2018 will be my rebirth. And I’m ready, oh so ready. Things that will be mine this year: Before I get into my personal goals, I’m going to preface this: What do the words, “want” and “hope” mean to you? For me, they’re empty. They don’t tell me anything. You can “want” all you want, but as long as you don’t DO something, you’ll never achieve anything. When I hear people talking about their …

Blue Christmas

This year’s Christmas was full of love and I was so lucky to be surrounded by family and people who love me. However, that doesn’t mean the holidays weren’t hard on me, because they were. I think it’s tough on anyone who just got out of a relationship to celebrate the holidays because of all the memories associated with them. Also, ’tis the season to be jolly, right? Well, I’m sure we can all agree it’s hard to be jolly when everything is so different. This year, I didn’t have a sappy caption under an adorable photo. I didn’t kiss anyone in front of the tree. I didn’t buy gifts for my “future in-laws.” This year, I’m alone. But it’s okay. Sure, I still find myself fighting back tears when all the memories start to weigh on my heart and the loneliness seeps in like a blinding fog. But with each day, it’s getting easier, and I know it will only continue to get easier as time goes on and I become stronger and happier. The …

Thanksgiving at Home

The last two Thanksgivings have been very different. Last year, I didn’t celebrate Thanksgiving because I was in Canada (so I celebrated Canadian Thanksgiving in October). The year before that, I was living on my own in DC, and I spent Thanksgiving by myself. So this year when I was able to celebrate Thanksgiving at home with my family, I was over the moon. We spent the day baking and cooking, watching the parade, playing board games, and of course… napping. It was perfect. Here are some photos from that day! Spending the holidays with my family will always be my favorite thing to do. Did you celebrate Thanksgiving with your family? How did you spend the day? 💛